Should I Smile??

Have you ever made a decision that you soon regret? Well, I decided it would be a great time to have our family picture taken. That was all fine and dandy until I realized that included ME!!! What was I thinking??? I am at a place where I not happy with my weight, but have no motivation or energy to do anything about it. In my head I can just start in the morning. Then the alarm goes off and I've had a little boy kicking me all night and my allergies are going crazy and I have to pack lunches and ....... You get the idea. Pictures are scheduled for this Saturday. I'm thinking it's not going to be pretty. Maybe we could do a family shot where I'm sticking my head out from behind the shed!!!

But It Hurts....

Have you ever had God ask you to do something? OK, have you ever had Him ask you to do something that hurt? Not physically. But where it was a true sacrifice. Well, this past week God asked me to do something that hurt. I did not want to do it. But when God speaks quietly to my heart and says "I want you to do this", I listen. He asked me to give up something that was "mine". Well, I shouldn't have been thinking about it as mine. because all we have is God's. But I have things that I think are mine. You better not touch them or ask me to share.



I tried to forget about it. But then one night I shared with John what God was calling me to do. He didn't laugh or push me to do it, he just listened to me ramble. Kind of like I am now. I realized that God owns all I have. It's not mine to begin with. I am selfish with my stuff. What God has reminded me this week is that it was never mine to begin with. Knowing this didn't really make it any easier to let go of something that was mine, but I'm working on it. But knowing that I've done what God asked me to do gives me peace.